It feels like it has been some time since I have last posted. I feel quite surprised that it seems like both so much and nothing has happened in the past month and six days. Most of December was vacated of a schedule, seeing as the school ended the term so that students could have a Christmas break. So, in the spirit of a vacation, I did nothing. I spent some time with friends, and a handful of chores around the house, but nothing beyond that.
What makes it feel like so much has happened is that I've given up hope on any prospect of happiness from high school that I don't already have. There is a number of memories from that time that I keep, most good (some bad), and a handful of friends from that time. I don't expect any of that to change. The stupid thing that I chose to do over the break was to finally get the nerve and just ask out one of my best friends from high school. We (as of this posting) have been friends for three years and a couple months, and we hung out a LOT in high school. I thought that it would be perfect. Heck, she even said that she liked the "nice guys," which is something that people used to tell me that I am. But apparently, I had gotten myself too far into the "friend-zone" to get out. *shrug* Oh well.
C'est la vie.
I am quite excited, however, that I have been re-enrolled in my first college after trying a senior university for a term. So, I returned to work on my recently declared second major. All of the paperwork has been taken care of; tuition has been paid; books will be picked up on the first day of class; I move into the dorm soon; and a job or two has been lined up for the upcoming semester.
Heck, to make it even better, a girl I used to swim with (
way back in the day) recommended a place in the town that I live in where I sh/could ask about an internship. I went yesterday to speak with someone about getting the internship, and the staff seemed to be quite receptive. After a fun tour of the facility, and a nicely flowing conversation, I would say that the prospect of a summer internship there is very promising.
Now (because I believe in posting depressing material) the only thing that depresses me this week is the art student's blog (mentioned
below). The blog itself is filled with good news (from a reader's perspective). She seems to have found someone that makes her absolutely crazy/torn up with "love" (whatever it is), upon which I congratulate her.
What makes it depressing is that the blog, along with half of facebook, seems to be quite taken with being in a relationship, or at the very least, courting someone. I have tried for years to woo, always failing miserably.
I say that not to ask for your sympathy. I don't really need it, and honestly wouldn't know what to do with it if I did have it. I say that to place into context why I'm not jumping up and down with happiness and joy in this upcoming year.
And now if you will excuse me, I think that I'll forget about my sorrows in one of Paul Verhoeven's
films. Other film recommendations are welcome either by email or via the comments on this website.
